Okay, so I guess I can no longer be in denial on Baby #6. Today was my first "official" visit with my OB (I'm 11 weeks) and she sent me to ultrasound since she couldn't get a heart tone on the doppler. The baby was moving all over the place during the ultrasound and is doing fine as far as they can tell. It is always so weird to see the ultrasound pics - they look like little aliens or something. :0) It has been a hard road for me with this one to come to an acceptance of this pregnancy. I was so fine with 5 kids and this one was not expected- actually we talked of sterilization a number of times and were almost to the point where we were going to do that- but something kept holding us back on it. I suppose now, it was this child. :) You know how you get answers to prayers sometimes or personal revelation and yet you kind of put it on the backburners of your mind because you think you know better or want something different? Yeah, that's how this was. I did get revelation of another one back when I was pregnant with Jake but I rationalized my miscarriage counted. :) I have been praying a lot and down a lot and hiding in my own world a lot, but Doug finally got me into the temple a while back and that was the turning point. It is so amazing how blessed we are to have temples and how very close to the Lord we are when we are there. I think that Heavenly Father was probably a little upset with how I reacted to the pregnancy (In my defense- I've been awfully sick!!), but such a calm feeling came over me as to this new baby and I finally felt myself accepting it and realizing that, though I don't feel like it right now, I will be able to handle it.
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16 April 2009
Acceptance
Okay, so I guess I can no longer be in denial on Baby #6. Today was my first "official" visit with my OB (I'm 11 weeks) and she sent me to ultrasound since she couldn't get a heart tone on the doppler. The baby was moving all over the place during the ultrasound and is doing fine as far as they can tell. It is always so weird to see the ultrasound pics - they look like little aliens or something. :0) It has been a hard road for me with this one to come to an acceptance of this pregnancy. I was so fine with 5 kids and this one was not expected- actually we talked of sterilization a number of times and were almost to the point where we were going to do that- but something kept holding us back on it. I suppose now, it was this child. :) You know how you get answers to prayers sometimes or personal revelation and yet you kind of put it on the backburners of your mind because you think you know better or want something different? Yeah, that's how this was. I did get revelation of another one back when I was pregnant with Jake but I rationalized my miscarriage counted. :) I have been praying a lot and down a lot and hiding in my own world a lot, but Doug finally got me into the temple a while back and that was the turning point. It is so amazing how blessed we are to have temples and how very close to the Lord we are when we are there. I think that Heavenly Father was probably a little upset with how I reacted to the pregnancy (In my defense- I've been awfully sick!!), but such a calm feeling came over me as to this new baby and I finally felt myself accepting it and realizing that, though I don't feel like it right now, I will be able to handle it.
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So sweet Didi. You need another boy to balance out your troop!! :) Each of our children bring something so special and unique in to our lives, and teach us so much. This child has much to show and teach you...I am sure of that.
ReplyDeleteIsn't it amazing how sometimes we can't get behind things we know are blessings? We as humans are so silly sometimes. I am so happy for your family.
ReplyDeleteFirst off congratulations! You have been on my mind so much lately. Now I know why. I was worried something awful had happened and now I know not awful but a blessing hard to accept. I will pray even harder fo you now. Love you, Rachel
ReplyDeleteThanks for all your comments my good friends. I really appreciate your support! Love you all!
ReplyDeleteI am SO happy for you!! that is exciting news!
ReplyDeleteChange and unexpectant change is a jolt whatever it maybe. Heavenly Father knows we are a little slow, but then when we realize our blessings it makes it so much sweeter and worth the stress and worries! And you have a new house soon for the new little one!
PERFECT TIMING! :)
This is a great post and I can say that I totally understand. I know things will work out and that you can do it with heavenly help.
ReplyDeleteYou still have three more to go if you are going to compete with the Smith and Greenwell families, so stock up on the diapers! HAHAHAH!
ReplyDeletehehehe- ok,ok- I hope it is a boy. Because 3 and 3 would look so cool in family photos. Congratulations Didi and I think the biggest blessing you must have been given is patience. Big Hugs from your big sister- Lori
Thanks Lori but I think I'll pass on competing with the Smith and Greenwell families!! We are kind of hoping it's a boy too, but I've been so sick that I wouldn't be surprised if it's a girl. My patience has grown with each one I think. :) Hugs back!
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